Saturday, March 31, 2007

Utah **warning... lots of photo's** and lame story writing :)

Well, we went to Utah about a week and a half ago. We were there from Wednesday (night) to Sunday (got home sunday night). Chad had some work to do while we were there, (infact that is the whole reason we went) which left me sitting at my parents house with no car Thursday and Friday... But, even though I did not see any friends or visit with anyone, I still had a good time with my kids and my family.

Thursday morning My mom and I took the kids on a walk to the farm that is down the hill from their house. There were new spring lambs for the kids to see. Six of them to be exact, and from the looks of it a few of the sheep were still pregnant. We fed them carrots and celery. It reminds me of the Wonder Pets and the episode where they saved the baby sheep, and shared celery at the end... What?!?! You don't watch the Wonder Pets??? What is WRONG with you? ;)

And now... Behold the random photo's I took of fences on our walk.

On the way home we passed by many wonderful sites, and even magical beasts! These fluffy white things are the buds from a wishing tree... Whatever, this is MY story and if I say its a wishing tree then it is.

Next we came to a forest of Purple Flower Tree's (that is really what they are called).

I discovered, quite by accident that if you smelled their aroma too deeply they turned you into a giant, kinda like the mushrooms in Wonderland...

After a few minutes the effects of the flower tree's wore off, and we continued on up the hill towards home. It was then that we encountered a ferocious lion!

I ran as fast as I could and stopped just below a tree. I looked up and saw Faeries! They tried to hide by wrapping themselves up inside their wings...

I didn't want to disturb the Faeries so I continued on up the hill, eventually making it home to my parents house. This is the view of the mountains out their front door... there are clouds in the way, but whatever... tomorrow I will have a much better photo. But this one is the last one I took on our walk :)

And that my friends, is the end of this entry... my eyes are tired. I hope you enjoyed the photo's of our little walk. And incase you have not figured it out yet, all the photo's are clickable so you can see them bigger.


Friday, March 30, 2007

Im still here!!!

I have just had a lot of things going on the last few weeks :) But I am still here, I am alive, and I am well. Thanks for your emails and concern, I really am good I am sorry I have been absent for so long.

I have many things to blog about and catch up on... it will probably take a few posts or people will get bored and start to yawn. :) So, I will start with my Mom and Sister coming to visit a few weeks ago.

It was Hye Soo's (my super hot little sister) spring break in the beginning of march and she and my mom drove down to Arizona to visit all of us who live out here. We went and saw the Body Worlds exhibit *soooo cool* We ate delicious food (thanks mom for buying me Bajio's *yum*) we ate not so delicious food... Chuckie Cheese pizza is nastay! And somehow the sister and I ate the whole damn thing by ourselves. The kids were smart enough to know that it was toxic, but holy shenanigans they were adorable while we were there. Observe:

You can click any of these to see them bigger...

We also got all the ladies in the family together one night for a little beading party. We are the kind of family that gets together and makes stuff... People who are not from our family or who don't make things themselves often find it strange. Like the time everyone made paper mache fish out of milk jugs, just so we could hang them from the ceiling. Mine ended up being my "mailbox" for valentines in 4th grade. Do you remember making you mailbox so that people could deliver your valentines to your desk in school? Yeah, mine was a big pink and red fish with purple lips and a HUGE open mouth so that it could swallow all the little notes and cards. :) But I digress, I was talking about the beading party. Here, why don't you take a little gander. The photo's are dark but you can see the fun, or maybe you can't ... but trust me, it was there :) The light quality sucked really bad when I took these, so they are kinda grainy. But you get the idea.

Well, that is all for this entry... I have lots more to say so I will most likey post again later tonight... the hubby is camping with his friends so I will be BORED... I could do something productive like clean, but what fun is that? Methinks my time would be much better spent playing around on the internet and eating cookies. Mmmmm cookies.... *drool*

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Prayers for a friend

Thea is one of the first bloggers I connected with when I started blogging. She has been an inspiration to me, and a good friend. I was thinking about her earlier today and just could not get her out of my mind, so when I checked her blog I knew why...

I can feel my heart breaking for her as I sit here, and my eyes are stinging as I write this. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers as her and her family go through this difficult time.

Monday, March 12, 2007

Finding water... and my voice.

This last week or two have been really weird. I have noticed myself really resisting doing my morning pages, and not wanting to do some of the exercises... And I am not entirely sure why. I *think* I know why sortof... but I am not really sure.

There is this person in my life that does not know where to stop. I mean, this person has crossed some big boundaries with me and keeps pushing. I feel like they are about to push me over the edge of something really dark and really deep. And the worst part is that this person really believes with all their heart that the things they are telling me, and asking of me are the right things. They have even gone so far as to tell me that it is something that God wants of me. And try as I might I cannot avoid this person forever. This has been going on for over 6 months now and they refuse to back down... I have tried avoiding being places where they might be, like church... or even the neighborhood parks as they live only houses away from me. But not attending Church does me no good at all, so when I go I end up ducking around corners to not be seen. I have tried to gently explain why these things that are being told to me may be correct to other people, but it does not apply to me. I have tried to bury my stress and confusion with this matter in huge quantities of chocolate and Dr. Pepper... All that has accomplished is an extra 10 pounds. So... I finally just feel like I have hit a wall. I have allowed this person to leach the life out of me, to criticize all the parts of me that make me feel like an individual, to judge things that are foreign and therefor scary to them. All this they have done with the best of intentions which I appreciate but can no longer deal with. I feel like someone drowning. I am floating in a pool of all these words unspoken and choking on their silence.

I need to go in and just say it. Tell this person that I *do* appreciate what they are trying to do, that the intention has not gone unnoticed... But that they will stop now. There will be no more questions. No more council as to what this person believes needs to happen in my life. This person will know that they have far overstepped a boundary with me and I will have no more of it. When it is all typed out like this it seems so easy to do... But when I try to speak, nothing will come. My throat closes and I would be lucky to get a dry, hollow, whisper.

But back to Finding Water... I am struggling with it right now to be honest. I intend to keep on with it but I am going to be honest and say that the last week and a half I have really not been keeping up with it. I have managed a few walks, always with the kids in tow, which is okay. I did get to do one Artists Date the week before last, I got a much needed massage. And I do manage to get almost all of the Divining Rod exercises done. The ones I have not done yet I am really resisting... I need to do the ones where you describe yourself as a character, and also describing and naming my inner critic... Also I need to do one or two still from last week. But I will catch up on those and I have already committed to starting up with my morning pages again tomorrow. So... yeah.

In other area's of my life since it has been so long since I have written an actual blog, Kayden got glasses, his Rx amazingly high (a 10+), each eye doctor was astounded... He is wearing a 6 right now and we will have to go back every month or so to work him up to a higher Rx. But he is oh so cute in them!!!

Kayden and Jett on one of our walks, right after Kayden had his pupils dilated.

Kayden with his super cute glasses :)

I will be back to post more pictures from our walks tomorrow... and perhaps some more revelations into my life :)